Jealousy is evil. So what other emotion should replace it when you see others succeeding and happy? When you know that you too could have been where they are? The continuous self evaluation and then giving a 0/10 each time makes you feel miserable.
Is this all that bad? Sometimes the thoughts are so jumbled that you really don't know. Can there be a time where I could do the surgery listing and laying out the inventory. Mark an itinerary and then sort things out? All at once is overwhelming. Maybe one piece a time.
As my nephew recently commented that I should now be ready with an invention like that of the light bulb or something similarly path-breaking in order to be so laid back. He wasn't really far from the truth. I do am laid back, no matter whatever turmoil my mind is in. However big the demons am facing or whatever efforts I am making to make things work.
Let me, today, for instance try and analyse what's wrong with me and around me. Of course in the next blog.
Is this all that bad? Sometimes the thoughts are so jumbled that you really don't know. Can there be a time where I could do the surgery listing and laying out the inventory. Mark an itinerary and then sort things out? All at once is overwhelming. Maybe one piece a time.
As my nephew recently commented that I should now be ready with an invention like that of the light bulb or something similarly path-breaking in order to be so laid back. He wasn't really far from the truth. I do am laid back, no matter whatever turmoil my mind is in. However big the demons am facing or whatever efforts I am making to make things work.
Let me, today, for instance try and analyse what's wrong with me and around me. Of course in the next blog.
